votre voix apaisante, une mélodie à mon coeur de wreckless.

i want to learn French. it's such a beautiful language and i could listen to it all day.

i just slept for about 2 hours and it was nice.

i didn't do a thing at school today. we had rotations and i went to a physical therapist who was really nice. then we got back, ate lunch, i went to chemistry and left, and then went to spanish where i slept.

oh what a lovely day.

so..i've been listening to John Mayer, who i used to previously hate, aaaallllot lately...and i really like him quite a bit.

And if you never stop when you wave goodbye
You just might find if you give it time
You will wave hello again
            -wheel


and if you want to know the moment
i knew that i was still alone
i found i never learned your number
i only stored it in my phone
you'd think by now
id know the shape of calling home
              -tracing

oh i've also been listening to some songs from the linkin park and jay-z split cd thing. i don't really like linking park or jay-z that much, but these songs are pretty tight and are well produced. you should definitely check that out.

and then there's also this song by le tigre, "TKO"...the video's pretty trippy..but it's good.

ummmm well i guess that's about it. love you guys.

so..i have a bit of a dilemna here.  i just got my acceptance letter to Texas Baptist All-State Choir. 

i should be happy.

i'm not.

well...it's not so much that i'm unhappy that i got accepted...more so that i'm unhappy that i'm probably going to end up turning it down.  you see, youth camp and baptist all state inter-twine with each other.  and there's no possible way that i could do a bit of both.  baptist all state is in south texas. youth camp is in new mexico. i would love love love to go back to baptist all state...i would be by myself though. and this will be the last year that many of my close friends go to youth camp before they graduate.  i think youth camp is something i need...i see it kind of being a time of closure. a time to say any last words and settle any problems before they leave. i think i need that. but i want to go to baptist all state. blehhhh....

well i don't know. that's all. if you guys have any advice for me, then shoot.

i'm going to go study. goodnight. love you guys.

it's good to be home.

i'm back from lake jackson...it was ok. i met my sister's boyfriend, Stan. (stan if you get on here, leave me a comment..plllleeease)

ok, so, every year, on the day after thanksgiving, it's like a tradition for my family to go shopping.  we go into these huge crowds and get incredibly frustrated with the large crowds of maniacs that we subjected ourselves to...(on a side note, mrs.ray has taken over my brain. i was just writing who after maniacs but then i realized that who would be refering to crowds not maniacs because maniacs is an adjective describing the crowds...so the proper word to use would be that or which)...ok so yesterday, we went to the freaking galleria. it was crazy.  it was soooooo flipping crowded. and we had my grandparents with us, so we were moving at a very slow pace through the mall which drove me crazy.  it was ridiculous...i will never go to the galleria again on the bussiest shopping day of the year...never.

holy crap. i have watched mean girls entirely too many times.  my mom is watching it for the first time right now with my sister, and i was just sitting there reciting all the lines.  i am gay for that.

we rented elf the other night and it was ca-ute.  i had seen it before but it was still pretty darn funny. i like that movie.  i also like eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.  i watched that at kaci's the other week....good movie.

oh yeah...one last thing.  we had a freaking gas leak in our house so they had to shut off our gas and fix it so our house wouldn't explode. so, for now, we don't have any hot water or heat.  it's not that bad...but i haven't had to take a shower yet and i absoloutely cannot stand cold showers. i don't know why...i just can't. ok anyways...i'm leaving. goodnight.

i'm hungry...

i'm listening to jimmy eat world right now...i think i like their new cd.

it's FLIPPING FRIDAY! HALLELUJAH!...(i don't think i spelled that right)

i have a lot of tests and what-not next week.  on monday, i have a spanish test..something else that i'm forgetting..oh yeah chemistry test. on tuesday, i have a paper due for mrs.ray; a data-based essay thing for mrs.hirshey; a paper due for hst and a test in hst and i have a math test sometime next week...not really sure when. i'm not too worried about that..i've made A's on my past two algebra II tests.

oh dang...i got a 4 on my taks writing for mrs.ray. (that's the highest score you can get) so, my paper went up on that WALL! yay!

i have to go to the craft show for golden girls tomorrow from 1-4 to help and dance. that will probably prove to be gay.

oh my goodness...i had the worst dream last night. i dreamt...(...?..dreamnt...?..) that my mom went to the doctor and they told her that she had 5 days left to live. then i just remember being at her funeral and then a dinner thing after it and i was just crying and crying in my dream. then i woke up and i was crying...and i couldn't stop. it really freaked me out. so i was worried about my mom all day so i called her at lunch and checked up on her...

i'm going to be home by myself for most of the evening...

i think i'll go stuff my face now.

love you guys...alot.

well i am officially 16. yeah that's right.

well, this morning in hst i ran across this chart about religion in our book. i've decided that i want to take some kind of religion classes in college. i want to incorporate music and religion. i know the obvious choice would be to get a degree in order to become a music minister at a church or something...but that's not what i want.  i just want to learn about all the different religions...all their beliefs, who began them, what they originated from, how long they've been around...i want to know it all. hmmm...i don't think i exactly want to get a degree with this...i just want to learn a whole lot about it.

so i have been reading about the gallatin school of individualized study. it's a division of NYU and it's perfect for what i want. you can mix interests and they have very flexible schedules and small classes with a great staff. if only it weren't in new york...i would love to go to new york and live there...but it's just so far away for college. man...i was talking to my sister the other day about this. about how my three dream schools are all just too far away...my top choices for college would be NYU Gallatin, Belmont University in Nashville, or Julliard (that would be in my dreams though...it's really hard to get into).  She said i should at least try...just apply to them. but i have a little while before i have to do that so...i have time to think it over.  i honestly think i would be very happy at UT. that's really where i'm hoping to go...so we'll see.

well i'm going to go finish reading this religion stuff because i really should be studying for chemistry. goodbye.

i awoke to the sound of the rain this morning...it was nice.

my mom is gone visiting some skydiving place because she wants to go skydiving soon...she told me i could go with her...maybe i will.

it's really hard to type because my fingers are taped together because they got jammed yesterday.

i like this quote alot...

"A painter paints pictures on canvas.  But musicians paint their pictures on silence." 
- Leopold Stokowski

well...i finally decided to update this ho. and i have nooooo idea what to write. well...hmmm...i just got back from golden girls. i was fairly hyper towards the beginning of practice...but everytime i am in such a mood...i just end up being really tired and grumpy by the end. so, this is my mood now. well today i realized how wonderful old friends are. i realized how happy i am to have the friends i that i have. and if anyone ever would like to hang out then give me a rind-a-ding. i don't hang out too much anymore...and i would love to get back to my old way of life. i also realized how much i can't wait till i can drive. i'll be 16 in 2 weeks, but i won't be able to get my lisence until december 18th... i have an agonizing stomach ache at the moment, but my mother said it's just the weather. i hope that this weather changes soon...i need a cold breeze desperately. i think i might be staying in conroe over christmas break for the first time in forever.  i signed up to go on the ski trip with church but i'm on the waiting list. i don't think i've ever been in conroe at christmas before...so you people better make this christmas break fun. alright well i think i'll be off to do homework. i'm trying this new thing where i work hard in order to get good grades so that i'll be able to get into U.T. So, in order to succeed in this endeveaor, i have to do homework. so yeah that's all. love you guys.

so, i often find myself in this position of being an incredibly procrastinatory person...i'm constantly avoiding things (mainly homework). well, today is my day off...yeah right..if only such a thing existed. well...hmmm i know it's been a while...so i guess i will just give every last detail of my weekend until you've reached a high state of boredomness that you never thought possible. well friday, i went to see my baby girl andi. that was wonderful. i went over there with kaci, dani, shelton, megan and shawn and alex met up with us there. yeah so we hung out there for a while...then i came home...then i went to christi's. that was fun. we all hung out for a while in her room which smelled of cleaning products (good smell christi...it was a good smell)...then we watched saved. i still can't really decide whether or not i enjoyed it. i just don't think i agree with the way that it portrayed Christianity....i don't know. i guess i could decide if i saw all of the movie...(i left early with megan and janice because i found myself falling asleep on christi's lovesack...so i went home) then...on saturday...i went out to carrie's to see matthew play...then i came home and tried to find a ride to bill's show...but that was an unsuccessful endeavor. so then, jenabre and i walked around her neighborhood for a while. then i went to her house and spent the night. then in the morning, mrs.nori and melissa came and got me and we went to church...then i worked the parking lot at church for the catfish festival. then...melissa, her mom, her aunt lala, alanna and myself went over to the catfish festival for a bit. then i walked back over to the church for band practice where we had a not so pleasant meeting...but then we straightened things out and got down to business. then i went to melissa's house with megan and the three of us watched godsend (that's a pretty freaky movie) and mr.ruben made us some enchilada soup...it was quite tasty. and then this morning...i got up, went to the orthodontist...went to eat lunch with my mother...and here i am. wow...well i was hoping to either go play tennis today or go to some thrift stores...but my mom is forcing me to work on my power point for my summer career shadow (it's due friday) i also have to type up a paper for mrs.ray and study for my history test tomorrow. and that is the extent of my work. yeah well hmmmm i don't really have anything else...i guess that's it...love you guys. later.

i just went outside and took some pretty cool pictures...if i can get my camera to download today..then i will put them up here. just thought i'd share that with you guys. but in the mean time, here's a picture of me & my girls. oh oh...and andrea is home from the hospital! yay..i'm going to go visit her today...well that is if sarah shelton will ever call me back...so shelton if you're out there...call me. ok well i guess that's it. love you guys. ok the picture of my girls isn't working...so i guess you'll have to use your imagination on this one. ok bye bye.